Life is like a comparison*

We've got it all wrong. We don't travel through time from the past into the future.
Time comes from the future.** It flows through the present and pours into the past.
Like pouring the wine out of a glass. The future is in the glass, and the past is spilled on the floor, or you drank it. You can't know for how long you can keep pouring the wine until it runs out. Clearly, you only have a certain quantity and you might accidentally spill it all out in any moment. Also, once you poured it out, you can't get it back into the glass or pour it out again. So you need to enjoy every little drop, when it comes...

*SSDD used to say that a lot back in highschool.
**I heard this idea at a grammar lecture, yesterday.

ebbe nem kotty belé szilvalé, de szép

Ez a vonat ha elindul hadd menjen
Énutánam senki ne keseregjen
Ha valaki énutánam kesereg
A jó Isten a két kezével áldja meg

Kicsi madár miért keseregsz az ágon
Nem csak te vagy elhagyott a világon
Nekem sincsen édesapám,sem anyám
A jó Isten mégis gondot visel rám

Életemben csak egyszer voltam boldog
Akkor is a két szememből könny hullott
Sírtam is én örömimban hogy szeretsz,
Bánatimban hogy az enyém nem lehetsz.

Ten Reasons not to Use Your Microwave Oven

Based on Swiss, Russian and German clinical studies
I had heard a long time ago that microwaves changed the food and made it unhealthy. So today after I ate an apple baked in the microwave, I thought I could ask Mark what was his opinion on this appliance, because I needed to know something for sure: are microwaves really dangerous? Then he sent me a report. Let me just say... today was the last day of microwave for me. I don't want to poison myself just because it's more convenient and quicker. I'll manage without it, it's just very very bad!!!
The report explains exactly how microwaves work, how they were invented and then mentions that they were banned in the Soviet Union back in 1976! (hmm why would they ban it if it was so 'harmless'?) It also presents scientific evidents from several studies.
Read through these Ten Reasons not to Use Your Microwave Oven from the end of that article (unfortunately the link is gone, so you can't find it to read how they reached to this conclusion).
[the last 3 are the most shocking]

  1. Continually eating food processed from a microwave oven causes long term, permanent, brain damage by "shorting out" electrical impulses in the brain [de-polarizing or de-magnetizing the brain tissue].

  2. The human body cannot metabolize [break down] the unknown by-products created in micro-waved food.

  3. Male and female hormone production is shut down and/or altered by continually eating micro-waved foods.

  4. The effects of micro-waved food by-products are residual [long term, permanent] within the human body.

  5. Minerals, vitamins, and nutrients of all micro-waved food is reduced or altered so that the human body gets little or no benefit, or the human body absorbs altered compounds that cannot be broken down.

  6. The minerals in vegetables are altered into cancerous free radicals when cooked in a microwave oven.

  7. Micro-waved foods cause stomach and intestinal cancerous growths [tumors]. This has been a primary contributor to the rapidly increased rate of colon cancer in the United States.

  8. The prolonged eating of micro-waved foods causes cancerous cells to increase in human blood.

  9. Continual ingestion of micro-waved food causes immune system deficiencies through lymph gland and blood serum alterations.

  10. Eating micro-waved food causes loss of memory, concentration, emotional instability, and a decrease of intelligence.

The symptoms of HD

  • Stiffness or decreased movement
  • Weakness
  • Pulsating sensation
  • Tingling
  • Prolonged breathing pauses
  • Palpitations
  • Pressure or heaviness
  • Tightness
  • Low oxytocin level
  • Discomfort
  • Inability to move

...those are the symptoms of Hug Deprivation


To not defend ourselves, but instead hear what is being said, and then be able to express our understanding through acknowledgement will beat a box of chocolates any day. (*)

Soha se fogod megtudni milyen csodálatos dolgokról maradtál le. Abban a pillanatban, amikor úgy döntöttél, hogy nem nyílsz meg a többiek felé, akik figyelmet és segítséget nyújtottak, az életed egy más irányba indult el. Lehet neked így megfelel. Eléggé sajnálom, hogy így alakult. De sose késő, biztos vagyok, hogy lesz még rá alkalom, hogy kellemes pillanatokat éljél át. A fontos az, hogy nyisd ki a szemed és fogadd be azokat a lehetőségeket, mert nincs túl sok belőlük.

N-o să ştii niciodată ce lucruri minunate ai pierdut. În clipa în care ai ales să nu te deschizi spre ceilalţi, care îţi ofereau atenţie şi ajutor, viaţa ta a luat o altă direcţie. Poate că tu preferi aşa. Îmi pare destul de rău că aşa s-a întâmplat. Dar nu e niciodată târziu, sunt sigură că vor mai fi ocazii să savurezi momente plăcute. Important e să deschizi ochii şi să accepţi acele ocazii, fiindcă nu sunt prea multe.

You'll never know what wonderful things you missed. The moment you chose not to open towards the others, who were offering you attention and help, your life took an other turn. Perhaps that's what you prefer. I'm quite sorry things turned out this way. But it's never late, you know, I'm sure there will be other chances to enjoy good times. What's important is that you open your eyes and let them in, because we only get so many opportunities in our lives.

train of thoughts that followed a course of economics - part II

An other thing I've been trying to figure out is why people are so obsessed with economic growth. The reason why I want to understand this aspect of our society is that I really want to prove that it's plain group suicide...
Why do people fight and work so hard to achieve economic growth? It is said that it brings an increase in the quality of life. But let's not forget that there is a limit to everything.
Firstly what does quality of life mean? Is it working 12 hours a day, without a moment for yourself, your family and friends, working to fill your house with cool furniture (that you barely get to enjoy) and your wardrobe with the newest clothes? You'd think that all this economic growth would give us more free time, yet it doesn't, we always need to work more to buy more.
Secondly just think about where we are growing... A person can't even grasp how immensely we have extended and occupied Earth in the last century. Hundreds of people have been desperately working on demonstrating that our planet can't sustain all of us if our population keeps increasing at this pace. It is said that great ancient civilisations (like the mayans) disappeared because of famine. Why do we fool ourselves that the same thing can't happen to us as well? It seems to me we aren't very intelligent, considering that we are still unable to learn from past mistakes.
I had been wondering about this urge to have economic growth for years. And I still can't understand what for?! Why do people fight for it? Economic growth (in my opinion) means more people on Earth, all of them working harder and harder. Is it actually worth it?
We need to reestablish what we really value and change the way we think as a society - because we can't just say "I don't understand what'up with all the fuzz, but what can I do? Everybody else wants this...". Because people don't want this, but they can't see it or admit it. This is not quality of life - in so many ways.
Question: What is quality of life for you?
(and think of what you would be willing to sacrifice for it?)

train of thoughts that followed a course of economics

It seems a very, very difficult task to organize my arguments

since too many ideas are revolving in my mind with the speed of thought.

I was never really interested in economics, I even think I've always felt repulsion towards this science because it revolved around the notion of profit. Somehow that greedy way of seeing the world contradicted most of my moral values. But last semester I had to go to a course of introduction into economics, in order to get accustomed to the specialized language I might need in the future as a translator. The things I learned definitely made me think and I decided to write down some of my thoughts, just to clear things up in my head. Please note that I'm not blaming or judging anybody, but maybe trying to persuade myself to change, by expressing and recognizing my own ideas.

I was very surprised to realize that I was actually enjoying learning economics! This was mostly due to the fact that I absolutely love it when I can understand new things. I found out that it's not such a harmful science, economists only want the best for people - in their own material way of dealing with things. They constantly analyze the behavior of human society and they try to propose solutions in order to allocate scarce resources in the best way – sounds like their work is very important.

Yet, no matter how well-intended economists might be, their theories are always based on all the wrong suppositions or notions, which make their proposals inadequate. These assumptions are not good to be accepted as a universal truth, because people will take them as such and they won't even dare to think about changing them.

We're not greedy – we are lost.

For example, it is said that the needs of humans are infinite, because as soon as a need is satisfied, a new one appears. That sounds pretty logical, life would be boring if we didn't have any purpose ahead of us. So one might conclude: greed is human nature. But how can you say such a thing?You don't have to need everything. You can choose to count all the things you already have that you can be thankful for in your life. Just think about it. You can choose not to be greedy any time, it's not human nature.

Let me also tell you about the huge difference between Real needs of humans and Artificial needs, that are created through advertising. Companies want to make a profit – by any means, so they produce something, virtually anything that they can sell. And they'll make you believe that you absolutely need their product – because it's good for something, it looks nice and everyone else has one, you just can't live without it.

We're not lazy – we want to discover other things to do with our time.

I know almost everything seems worth buying, most products usually simplify things for us - like a washing machine. This time one might say that one of the fundamental characteristics of humans is laziness – we invent things that work instead of us. But let's not be so judgmental and see things from a more positive point of view: inventing efficient objects also allows us to spend time doing other things, discover what we might want to do with our lives.

So it is true that good, practical, essential things were invented through the ages. But most products are being produced just to bring profit, to give the false feeling of wealth or luxury. Imagine you never ever heard of... say... shower gel? Would you wake up some day and start longing for it, searching for it at the supermarket? No, you would be well off with good ol' soap. The truth is that you could live a perfectly happy life without half of the things you own (and those you want to buy in the future).

We want to connect with people – there are endless possibilities

One of the reasons why we always want to buy more and more things can be related to"our deepest impulses as social creatures who want to build connection in community"(Re:Imagining Change). This means that people feel that in order to have the opportunity to build relationships they need to own a house, a car, wear the right clothes and be able to hold a conversation on certain subjects (like in school, if you don't know what everyone's watching on TV, you'll probably be silent for most of the time). But why are our communities based on what we own/wear/see? Shouldn't we build relationships on shared values, ideas or by working together on something? People should pay attention to each other, not to their clothes and other objects. So we need to find possibilities to connect to others based on other common points – free time activities or volunteering.

A very frustrating aspect of consuming is that nobody cares whether you actually consume what you buy or not, as long as you buy it. Sometimes you don't even finish your bottle of perfume, you don't even wear half of the T-shirts you own, you haven't discovered all the tricks your cell phone can do – you already want to buy a new one. It just makes you feel good to spend money and keep up with the others. What I thought about is this: what if I can discover other ways to enjoy life and feel good about myself, too? Buying things seems to be like an addiction, an obsession that makes you happy for a while until you need to buy something again. What if I just replaced this obsession with something else? What if I focused my energy on an other activity that made me happy?

I like giving gifts to my friends, I feel good if I can help them when they need me and I also love to feel like I belong somewhere or to somebody. About 4 years ago I went to a volunteering camp and it was pure happiness. There was a huge group of people building and decorating a traditional bath close to a village. They came from several countries and along with the locals they created an amazing place to calm down, have a bath, take a moment to heal and see the beauty in the world. All of us were connecting by working together, learning new skills, living through new experiences and we felt like we belonged together. Everyone had a task to do, their own part in the project – peeling some tree trunks, painting some signs, clearing an area to build a pathway, only as much as you would be able and willing to do. But it was such a great feeling, being part of it, that all you wanted is to do more, make everything even better, because you always felt immediate joy as you saw things coming together. This is one example of obsessing about something more constructive (literally), that makes you feel better. Later I practiced my favorite obsessions, playing the flute and dancing. Now I think it's writing huge texts trying to figure out what I'm about, speaking and listening to people and discovering the world. That's why I'm not going to “get rich or die tryin'”, you see buying things doesn't make me feel good, but living life and connecting to people does.

An other wrong thing about how economists see the world is that they only take into account “scarce resources that can be traded on a market at a certain price”. Which means that in their minds everything can be bought and what you might just “give” to somebody has no value whatsoever (unless you buy it from somewhere). So what is the value of offering to help somebody, volunteering, spending time with old people, raising and educating children, or just cooking for yourself? How does that count into the GDP? Shouldn't you give yourself a salary and pay taxes for cleaning your room? Your country would become much richer. (I wonder if they ever thought of that possibility in some country?!) And who gets to sell the air, the water, fire and land? Where can you buy tickets to look at the sky, to walk down a street in warm rain, to climb a mountain or to swim in the ocean? When do we pay for making friends, building communities, receiving advice from our families or friends? Can you buy the joy of offering help, comforting someone in trouble? The most valuable things can't be bought, they can be experienced.

I admit that every single paragraph is open to dispute. So you are welcome to react if you feel like it!


a minap rájöttem, hogy az apró dolgok hiányoznak leginkább. hogy anyu megkérdezze, mit csináltam ma, öcsi hívjon AgeofMythology-t játszani (és sose megyek), megkérdezzem apát "mithoztál?" mikor hazaérkezik, a kutya felugorjon az ágyba és mellém kucorodjon, anyu rámszóljon: itt az ideje megmosni az ablakot, öcsi mondjon vicceket, apuval is megbeszeljük a dolgokat, játszani egyet a kutyával. aztán pletykáljunk a lányokkal az egyetemen, menjek táncpróbára szerdán, régizene próbára szombaton. hogy jöjjenek komáék, Stefiék s mi is menjünk hozzájuk. s menjek Szentgyörgyre és Kászonba. s főleg öcsém. de ő már nem is apró.

the most

yesterday I realised it's the little things I miss the most. my mom to ask me what I've been doing today, my brother to ask me to go play AgeofMythology with him (and I never do), to ask my dad "what have you brought me?" when he comes home, the dog to jump up and curl next to me in the bed, my mom to remind me it's time to wash the windows, my brother to tell jokes, to talk to my dad, too, to play with the dog. then to gossip with the girls at university, to go dancing on wednesday and to early music rehearsal on saturday. for our family friends to come visit and we would visit them, too. and to go to Szentgyörgy and to Kászon. and the most, my brother. but he's not little anymore.

cel mai mult

ieri mi-am dat seama că lucrurile mici îmi lipsesc cel mai mult. ca mama să mă întrebe ce-am făcut azi, frati-miu să mă cheme să jucăm AgeofMythology (nu merg niciodată), să-l întreb pe tati "ce mi-ai adus?" când soseşte, câinele să sară şi să se cuibărească lângă mine în pat, mama să-mi zică: e timpul să speli geamurile, frati-miu să-mi spună glume, să vorbesc şi cu tata, să mă joc cu câinele. apoi să bârfim cu fetele la universitate, să mă duc la dans miercuri şi la repetiţie de muzică veche sâmbăta. să vină naşii pe la noi, să mergem şi noi la ei. şi să mă duc la Sfântu Gheorghe şi la Casinu Nou. şi mai ales frati-miu. dar el nu mai e mic.